part 2 i’m falling asleep typing this and i have a bio test tomorrow that i know i’m gonna fail but i cant make myself stay awake and study oh how i h8 myself sometimes

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part 2 i’m falling asleep typing this and i have a bio test tomorrow that i know i’m gonna fail but i cant make myself stay awake and study oh how i h8 myself sometimes


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i think the main reason i’m so sad is i’ve changed a lot in the past few years and im genuinely kind of proud of who i am now. and i just wish he could see that.
even tho he was pretty confused in his last few years i think he’d still be proud of me :) but he’d be proud no matter what i guess. that’s what i miss.
im gonna shut up now tho so goodnight and i’m truly sorry if you read all of that
we all regret things but it just makes us human, don’t be so hard on yourself man, he wouldn’t want that. he’s not really gone, he still lives on in your memory and maybe you could learn the song he wanted for him💞I hope you’re doing okay and this sucks, it really does but at least you can take a meaningful moral from this experience, to never take someone for granted and to value someone with every moment💛reading these posts, I have learnt that so thank you for sharing it and I hope it relieves some weight off your chest💞
Your relationship with him is so pure. I hope you are doing ok and there’s no way I can relate to this situation but I hope you know that he is in your memories forever. Things like this make people be more open minded and appreciative to others. Just the other day, my friend was reminiscing the good memories about her grandma that passed and some regrets she had. She was not only a baby sitter for me but also kind of like a second grandma to me too. I don’t think dealing with a passing is easy to overcome but in the end, there are moments engraved in your heart and it’s better to have them stay positive. Always here to talk or simply listen ❤️